Tuesday, May 22, 2012
I love that boy...
I'm sitting in my favorite little spot..with a very heavy heart. I still...after all this Really have a hard time with all the issues between Kadens father and myself. The hardest part, although I hate to,admit it...is I still have feelings for this man. So I struggle everyday. Struggle with how to get him out of my head..and my heart. How to stop being absolutely crushed by him. I know what I want in my life. I do want love and trust. I also know I will never trust this man again. And I truly don't feel he's ever going to be able to be the person...nor does he want to be...that I thought he was. I've shed many tears the past few months again. Old feelings are brought up...I see what some might consider hope..only to have it all come crashing down again..in the EXACT same way it has so many times. Soooo...thank you God, when a little voice from across the room announces..."Ewwwwww....that was a puke burp!". How do you NOT laugh..and thank God for the amazing gift of this little boy!
Posted by alltheseboys at 6:43 PM