What could they be talking about?

What could they be talking about?

Never allow the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game!

Babe Ruth

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

I love that boy...

I'm sitting in my favorite little spot..with a very heavy heart. I still...after all this Really have a hard time with all the issues between Kadens father and myself. The hardest part, although I hate to,admit it...is I still have feelings for this man. So I struggle everyday. Struggle with how to get him out of my head..and my heart. How to stop being absolutely crushed by him. I know what I want in my life. I do want love and trust. I also know I will never trust this man again. And I truly don't feel he's ever going to be able to be the person...nor does he want to be...that I thought he was. I've shed many tears the past few months again. Old feelings are brought up...I see what some might consider hope..only to have it all come crashing down again..in the EXACT same way it has so many times. Soooo...thank you God, when a little voice from across the room announces..."Ewwwwww....that was a puke burp!". How do you NOT laugh..and thank God for the amazing gift of this little boy!

18 comments:

  1. OH Katie, I can so relate to those feelings I have been there in my past

    you know they won't change but you just do not know how to let go of your feelings. That is tough

    LOL on the little boy

    Hugs
    Brenda

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  2. Hi Katie... I am a relatively new follower, and did not know that you are not with Kaden's father. I'm sorry to learn that things are so complicated right now, and hope that you can soon put this man behind you.... My youngest daughter, although not married, has been going through a similar thing with an ex..... very difficult. Good luck to you....
    Kaden's comment is soooooo funny.... out of the mouth of babes.... :) glad he could lighten things up for you today!!
    Hang in there..... Penny

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  3. little boys and their comments...:) my son needs a high five after a toot.
    Hugs to you sweetie. I have been there myself.

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  4. Katie...I am sending many hugs!!! i am sooo sorry this man has hurt you so many different ways, it's got to be so hard, but you have children with him I so understand why it's taking you a while...but there is someone out there that will love you the way to deserve! OLM

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  5. Remember you have four wonderful men & one terrific "little man" who love you! So hopefully every time you stop for reflection Kaden will come along with his cuteness!:)
    One day at a time...
    take care
    Kim

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  6. Thank God for lil boys ...and for the Mommmas that love them ! Katie I have been in your shoes more than once ...its all part of the grieving process ...Id love to tell you that it will all go away forever in a blink of an eye but it won't ..but keep faith in that God has brought you to this and he will lead you through it and as your friend Im here if you need an ear ! Im a firm believer that there is someone out there for each of us ...and everyone in our lives has something to offer good bad indifferent ...it is what makes us who we are and the strong independent women we are !!!And remember even though hard sometimes someone leaving is a Blessing in disguise ! BIG HUGS lil raggedy angie

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  7. Hope in someone you care about is the hardest to let go of.Seems to me you've got the best part of the relationship right there..Kaden..Big Hugs!~Amy

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  8. Katie, So sorry for the pain and heartache you have been feeling. I know that there is a lucky guy out there just waiting for you. And that Kaden is adorable, doesn't it seem like no matter how rough the day is, they always have a way of saying or doing something to just make you smile. Bunches of hugs, Lecia

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  9. Have you heard the song by Kelly Clarkson called 'What doesn't Kill You'? Every time I hear that song I think of you. She sings that "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stand a little taller, doesn't mean I am lonely when I'm alone. What doesn't kill you makes a fighter, footsteps even lighter, doesn't mean I am over cause you're gone". .....It's a power song and I love it. Love hurts so much sometimes, but you are good to talk about it and share it. We can support you and love you and help you. God has given you a gem to make life so happy:) You have a good family to surround you too:) I hope you can get over this hump again.....and start feeling better.
    My baby has speech delay and doesn't talk at her age level for a three year old. It amazes me sometimes the things that can come out of her mouth though. Yesterday I gave her some cranberry juice. She took a drink and said "smells like poop". She has never said that anything smells like anything before and the first time...."it smells like
    poop".!!!! Ha ha. She makes me laugh everyday. -Steph-

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  10. Sorry to hear this Katie. There is a Mr. Right out there for you somewhere. And he will come along one day and you will have your happily ever after, I just know it! I'm in a situation with my youngest son's father now. Though we are still together, the last few years have been Hell. Told him several times to leave and he will not go. Thank God we work opposite days and shifts, &don't see a whole lot of each other. Alot of tension in this household., I tell you. My son is the only good thing that came out of this relationship. Take Care my friend and hang in there!

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  11. Katie, wish I could give you some words of wisdom, but all I can offer is my prayers.

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  12. My dear Katie,
    Feeling a little shaky today too.....I wish I could help, take it away--you so deserve only the best! Know that I am thinking of you.

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  13. Ya, second thought....Mr. Right is out there for you. You deserve one to add to your collection of 5. Love you Katie.

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  14. Aww Katie... hugs hugs and more hugs, puke burps and all. Although I call them "vurps". I had a feeling you were sad. It'll be alright sweetie. Get that pottie mouth little boy of yours and put in your choice of dvd for exercise or dancing and go go go. Oh, and you can cry all you want too. It cleans out the pipes :o) Keep your chin up!
    Carol

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  15. Oh Katie, I love Rascal Flats and I love your choices. Been looking to embed music and theirs is perfect for many of my posts. Hope you are feeling a tad better. Coninuing to think of you. You deserve only the best from the rest of your life!!!!!Love, Donna

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  16. Continuing. Typing too fast.

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  17. Oh, Katie.. I pray that God will either mend your broken heart.. Little boys have a way of helping fix it, though... smile..
    God bless you, dear..

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  18. Katie,

    I hope your heart heals soon and you find that special someone. I was with the love of my life 24 years and God called him home. I know how hard it is to let someone go you loved so much. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

    Donna

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